lonely song

Solitary confinement
is the worst punishment they inflict
on any prisoner,
and we’ve been through
similar

and some of us are still there,
I’m aware
hospitalized without visitors
students in isolation
elders in care

and all of us bent over at a phone
neck stuck at a computer
looking for a friend

Call me home
can we correct it?
do I move somewhere new, and forget it?
Today that feels like giving up
And I don’t give up

I could be wrong
this isn’t the kind of song
that I hope to sing.
I was learning in Sedona
how music can heal
It can do a lot of things

And that everything you say
is going out from you, forever
in sound waves;
They never really go away
And you can choose
what you say


You know that scene
in Stranger Things
when Max is
running and running, and
Her friends put Kate Bush in her headphones?
I was wondering
what song
would that be for me?

And I think
it would do
if someone I knew was singing,
anything

and it always was nice talking to you
because most people act like i’m not really there
or like I’m someone else
they say I need to pay someone
to tell my thoughts to

And I do
she says I can try some drugs for months and months
until I find something that makes me feel ok

But I’m not ok with this
I don’t think anyone is
We weren’t made for this

I read Loneliness
by John Cacioppo, I read
How Behavior Spreads by Damon Centola,
I think the scientists agree, we’re not made for this

They say I need to love myself
before anyone else
will love me. I agree
but they also say
we need eight hugs
a day
for maintenance

but I could be wrong
this isn’t the song
I had hoped to sing.
I was learning in Sedona
how music can heal
free the soul
restore the body
it can do a lot of things

And that everything you speak
travels out from you
in sound waves;
It never really goes away
and you can choose
what you say

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